He climbed the stairs, past the dozing landlady and let himself into the room. Hot and airless, having been shut against the ravages of the rainy season, it smelled of secrets growing in dark corners. He switched on the ceiling fan and left his sandals at the door.
Shedding first his damp shirt, then his jeans, then his shorts, he lay for a while spread-eagled on the enormous bed with its hideous black and pink, rose-motif carved headboard. The first night heâ€™d slept in it, heâ€™d dreamed of suffocating to death inside an huge vagina lined with thorns and leaves, but familiarity inured him to it. The heat could rob you of everything but the need for sleep. He considered not moving till dawn, but he hadnâ€™t eaten dinner and, besides, if he spent another evening alone in this room, heâ€™d go crazy.
Outside, in the alleyway, the little girl who sold lottery tickets was wailing out a stream of numbers. Lucky numbers, she yelled. Someone called her further up the alley and her song died away.
â€˜I should move,â€™ he thought.
The rains had brought a different pattern to the life in the alley, and different noises. A cricket had taken up residence in a plant pot outside his window and, as the light died, it began to chirp. A cruel little drill that took him between the eyes and bored bloodless holes in his skull.
The sheets beneath him leached moisture from his pores. Perhaps heâ€™d dozed off, the light from the window having fled with surprising speed, leaving behind a twilit gloom.
Above him the fan began to squeak its labours, a counterpoint to the cricket outside. He tried to find the rhythm soothing but couldnâ€™t and, with the sigh of a martyr, heaved himself off the bed and padded to the shower.
The bathroom was windowless and had been constructed haphazardly by raising a wall off the kitchen. The top of it was open concrete latticework, allowing for airflow, but this also meant that anyone in the kitchen had intimate knowledge of the state of his digestive system. One of the many small humiliations that forced him to look for his dignity in novel places.
His bedroom offered only slightly more privacy. One morning, after a sleep honeycombed with wet dreams and nightmares, his landlady asked him if he was all right. Sheâ€™d heard him moaning in his sleep. After that, he resolved to keep whatever romantic liaisons he might be lucky enough to have off the premises.
He stood before the showerhead and turned on the water. At almost six feet, the spray assaulted him at nipple level, lukewarm and needle-like. The shower, forcing water through holes no larger than pinpricks, mitigated the lack of water pressure. It made his body feel huge and ungainly. He had to crouch down to wet his hair and wait for the water to saturate it enough to use the shampoo. It was time to shave off the dreads, he decided. They werenâ€™t practical here; in all likelihood, things were nesting in them.
He let the suds from his hair sluice over his body, using them to wash as much as he could before resorting to the soap. No strategy, however ingenious, seemed to stop the bar of soap from melting into a mass of slithery goo. Nonetheless, heâ€™d gauged the amount of shampoo wrong and ended up having to use it anyway. It squished between his fingers as he made lather, and itched as he worked the foam over his lower stomach and into his crotch.
Since his arrival in Saigon, heâ€™d taught himself a new skill: masturbating while standing. It wasnâ€™t much of an accomplishment, but it hadnâ€™t previously been his habit. The heat had prompted him to try it in the shower and the first time heâ€™d jacked off that way heâ€™d almost keeled over from the strength of the orgasm. The trick, he found, was to brace against the wall and let the stream of water splay out over the surface of his chest. It was a curious sensation to feel the sweat wash away even as it formed.
That evening heâ€™d started, but the soap felt harsh and stung his skin. He closed his eyes, consciously pushing away the discomfort, replacing it with images of Mai. Long black hair cascading off milky shoulders, breasts like scoops of ice cream topped with dark, dark raspberries. After years of exposure to the westâ€™s limitless raunch, her demureness had enchanted him. Getting her undressed had taken weeks of coaxing. Finally, she reclined on the bed like a body prepared for burial, unmoving and with a look of deep resignation on her face. Still, he couldnâ€™t forget the unfathomable beauty of her body, the mute purity.
She behaved with such absolute naivety heâ€™d been shocked to discover she wasnâ€™t a virgin. But his relief at not being responsible for that particular hurdle in her life was soon replaced by the creeping horror that grew with her non-responsiveness. No matter how diligent his attentions, how achingly slow the foreplay, the hours spent with his head and hands between her legs, she never made a sound, never twitched, never shuddered. Even when it was blindingly clear she was aroused â€“ her cunt blood engorged and overflowing with her own juices â€“ she wouldnâ€™t acknowledge it. Finally, heâ€™d fucked her out of frustration, watching her immobile face unchanging beneath him. It had been like fucking the dead.
Afterwards heâ€™d felt awful. He berated himself for not trying harder, being more patient. Mai, on the other hand, had acted as if the single-sided intercourse had been the only â€œnormalâ€ part of the whole debacle, his other efforts being blatant examples of the unaccountable things that foreigners do.
Initially, when he attempted to discuss it with her, she refused, saying that decent people didnâ€™t talk about those sorts of things. After a night of deliberate badgering, sheâ€™d reared around at him, eyes blazing. â€˜Good women donâ€™t like it,â€™ she said. â€˜Not in Vietnam. If he wanted a Western whore who actually enjoyed it, he should find himself one.â€™
Slowly, the water grew cooler. He felt his erection wither and die in his hand; his mind was rowdy and undisciplined, refusing to give him the comfort of selective memories. He gave up, turned the shower off and dried himself.
After Mai, heâ€™d spent some time at the nightclubs. At first heâ€™d brushed off the energetic attentions of the bar girls; they were just as beautiful as Mai but there was sharpness behind their eyes. The idea of paying for sex had never occurred to him before; neither the necessity nor the opportunity had ever been part of his reality. But his resolve wore thin one night after half a bottle of Johnny Walker. It had been the single most hideous sexual experience of his life.
At the bar, in public, the girl, Thanh, had pawed him with a lewdness that verged on obscenity, repeatedly grabbing and massaging his clothed cock. But in the hotel room, after dispensing with her clothes, sheâ€™d lain on the bed exactly as Mai had done, only with her legs spread wide for access. He had paid her, put on a condom, fucked her and then vomited in the sink. After that, heâ€™d sworn off Vietnamese girls. There were probably perfectly nice ones out there, but he didnâ€™t think his self-respect could bear another attempt at finding out.
He dressed and walked through the winding alley that led onto the main street in the foreignerâ€™s ghetto. He ate slowly, lazily, at a noodle stall by the river and then strolled along the embankment deciding where to spend the rest of the evening. He was torn between wanting the noise of a crowded expat bar and dreading the inevitable drunken moaning he was likely to have to listen to as the night wore on. Beyond the brightly lit marquee of the Rex Hotel, he walked past the Lucky Karaoke club. It had been a month since heâ€™d last had a good, self-indulgent session with a couple of bottles of beer and a karaoke machine. The rooms were clean and well insulated, and the price was right at three dollars an hour.
â€œLong time I no see you, Mr. Robert!â€ exclaimed the manager as he walked through the candy-coloured lobby. The young man with the single gold tooth grabbed and pumped his hand energetically.
â€œDo you have one of the small rooms?â€
The manâ€™s face fell. â€œOh, no. Sorry. No more rooms. All taken.â€
Robert stood for a moment, considering his options. He could hear the rain begin outside on the street. It wasnâ€™t likely to stop for at least an hour. Perhaps heâ€™d be reckless and join a bunch of tanked-up Japanese businessmen, just for a laugh. â€œAny foreigners?â€
The managerâ€™s smile re-ignited a moment, and then it died. â€œOne white girl. She come to sing every month. Alone. She crazy.â€
â€œIs she pretty?â€
The young man made a sour face. â€œShe look like boy. Ugly. Not friendly.â€
Robert had thought he was the only foreigner in Saigon who rented a karaoke room and sang by themselves. He laughed. â€œWhat room?â€
The manager hesitated a moment. Rummaging in his pocket, Robert pulled out a wad of bills and held a couple of 50,000â€™s out. â€œCome on, what room?â€
Shrugging, the man pocketed the money and pointed up stairs. â€œSix.â€
He felt a frisson as he climbed the stairs. Outside the door to room six, Robert stopped and had second thoughts. He was, if he were being honest, trespassing. What if she was a psycho? He didnâ€™t trust the managerâ€™s judgement when it came in Western women, but what if she really was hideous looking?
Putting his hand on the doorknob and pushing it so it sung inwards, he reasoned that he could always plead ignorance and leave. He poked his head into the room.
The woman was sprawled out on the zebra striped sofa. For all the world, she looked like she was watching TV, except that she had one hand on the mic, holding it up to her mouth, and the other tucked behind her head. He understood why the manager had said she was ugly. From a Vietnamese point of view, she was everything a woman shouldnâ€™t be: sloppily dressed with incredibly close-cropped hair, heavy eyebrows and a wide, lipsticked mouth. She wore a loose vest that looked like it belonged to someone three sizes bigger, and baggy combat trousers. If it hadnâ€™t been for the bracelets and the neon pink flip-flop dangling from a nail-polished toe, she could easily have been mistaken for an effeminate male.
â€œNow weâ€™re gonna be face-to-face And Iâ€™ll lay right down in my favorite place And now I wanna be your dogâ€¦â€
It only took Robert a moment to recognize the song she was singing â€“ or rather, talk-singing. It made him grin from ear to ear. As the music wound down, she noticed him and pulled herself up to a sitting position.
â€œThe room is taken!â€ she yelled over the music.
He ignored her. â€œWow! Iggy Pop! In Vietnam! Amazing,â€
â€œThis room is booked. Try the other one across the hall.â€
The end of her sentence was shouted over sudden silence. She was surprisingly angry and it showed on her face. One thing the manager was right about; she was definitely not very friendly. Robert looked down at the table and saw an open bottle of vodka. It was obviously â€˜get blottoâ€™ night for her. Maybe there were good reasons why she was doing it alone.
â€œAll the rooms are booked. They sent me here. They said thereâ€™s only one white girl in here.â€ He tried to look pitiful; that usually worked with women.
â€œI book this room the last Friday of every month. Itâ€™s mine!â€ she barked, getting to her feet. â€œFuck it! Never mind. Let me go talk to them.â€ Before he could say another word, she pushed past him roughly, leaving the room and taking the stairs downward at a good clip.
Robert sighed. The manager hadnâ€™t exaggerated at all; she was crazy, she was ugly and she was extremely unfriendly. He turned to leave, but then a wave of stubbornness washed over him. â€˜Fuck her. Iâ€™m not leaving,â€™ he thought. There were less than five hundred westerners living in the city. They should at least learn to be civil to each other. If sheâ€™d asked him to leave politely, he would have, but since sheâ€™d been such a bitch about it, heâ€™d stay and enjoy her discomfort.
Walking over to the sofa, he took a cigarette from the open pack on the table and lit it. Then he sat down and keyed up her songlist on the screen. â€˜Good god, what a weird mix of songs.â€™ Much as he wanted to, he didnâ€™t feel it was right to judge her by her choices. All over Saigon, karaoke clubs were overstocked when it came to anything written before 1975 or after 1995. Songs recorded between those dates seemed to be selected by someone whoâ€™d plunged his hand into a jar of 80â€™s and 90â€™s hits and pulled out a handful at random.
Recklessly, Robert pulled the song menu open in front of him and began inputting numbers from the list. He had a reason for choosing each of them. First, he wanted to know if she had any sense of humour at all, then he wanted to know what state of mind she was in. He figured the way she reacted to the songs would tell him.
She was back at the doorway, her wiry frame throwing a long shadow into the room.. â€œHey! You have to go. I rent this room to be by myself.â€
Robert smiled inwardly, took a drag off the cigarette and fought the urge to look up at her again. â€œIâ€™ve been here a ton of times, but I never noticed they had any Iggy Pop.â€ He slid his finger down the page of the song menu as he spoke.
â€œHey! Asshole! Did you hear me? Leave!â€
â€˜What a fucking bitch,â€™ thought Robert. But aloud he took a passive-aggressive tactic. â€œI canâ€™t. Itâ€™s raining.â€
â€œThen Iâ€™ll leave!â€
She stomped around the table in a temper and slammed her shin on the corner of it. Robert winced as she collapsed onto the sofa, grabbed her leg and cursed. â€˜You so absolutely deserved that,â€™ he thought. There was a fleeting moment of sympathy which he crushed it under a mental heel. He resolved to pursue the inane approach â€“ it seemed to really irritate her â€“ but his sense of self-righteousness ebbed away as he looked at her again. She wasnâ€™t ugly at all. That was unfair. She was most definitely odd looking, but not ugly.
â€œDo you like Abba?â€
â€œNo. I fucking hate Abba,â€ she snapped back. She was fussing around, grabbing her cigarettes and hunting for something down the side of the couch. She started screwing the top on the bottle of vodka and then stopped and breathed deeply. â€œLook,â€ she said, her voice totally changed, â€œIâ€™m sorry for being a bitch. Itâ€™s just that I really look forward to hollering my lungs out by myself. Itâ€™s kind of therapy, you know?â€
She looked up â€“ looked straight into his eyes. They were big green eyes, full of something intangible, something sad and fragile. Robert felt guilt kick a dent in his armour. â€˜What the fuck am I doing barging in to someoneâ€™s personal space and playing stupid head games with a complete stranger?â€™ He had an overwhelming urge to apologize but then sheâ€™d go and that would be it. And, to his surprise, he didnâ€™t want her to go at all. What could he say to change her mind?
â€œCan I have some of that vodka before you go?â€ Robert held his breath, fully expecting her to tell him to fuck off.
She smiled â€“ it was a very nice smile â€“ as if she was making up for everything that had gone before. â€œSure,â€ she murmured, and poured some of the clear liquid into the plastic glass on the table.
As he took a gulp of the vodka and almost choked on it, his mind raced for a way to distract her â€“ to make her forget about leaving. He took up the mic that sheâ€™d abandoned on the couch. â€œCome on. I bet you like Abba. It just depends on which song.â€
Robert pushed the play button on the remote and prayed for the music to start. He cleared his throat and started to sing as the lyrics began to stream along the bottom of the screen.
â€œHalf past twelve And Iâ€™m watching the late show in my flat all alone How I hate to spend the evening on my own Autumn winds Blowing outside the window as I look around the roomâ€¦â€
He felt weird singing it in front of her. After all, it was a girlâ€™s song. But he kept snatching glances at her as he sang and his confidence grew when it seemed clear she wasnâ€™t going to start laughing at him. She was smiling, though, and took a couple of sips from the communal glass. When the chorus kicked in, she sang along, grinning, and Robert realized there was no mic for her.
He slid up next to her while he sang the second verse so that, when the next chorus came, he could share the mic with her. She didnâ€™t sidle away or try to avoid him; she leant in and sang along. And for no real reason he could put his finger on, he felt like everything was okay. Better than okay. By the end of the song, she was giggling. He felt it all the way along where there arms were touching.
Now, as the second song heâ€™d picked began to play, he felt deeply embarrassed about it. It was such a stupid, macho song. Robert almost stopped it to skip to the next one. But then he remembered why heâ€™d chosen it: to see if she had a sense of humour. Now he wanted to know. There was only one way to sing Billy Idol karaoke-style â€“ you had to camp it up for all it was worth. He grinned at her, took a swig of vodka, and began:
â€œHey little sister what have you done? Hey little sister whoâ€™s the only one? Hey little sister whoâ€™s your supermanâ€¦â€
He was certain she would laugh, and at first she did. As he got into the song, the smile left her face and she turned her head away, leaving him to guess at her expression. He nudged her and she faced him again, with an expression he couldnâ€™t read. All he could sense was the tension in her body; they were still sitting side by side and he could feel her muscles tense and the warmth of her body soaking into his where it touched. It felt good to him, friendly somehow, safe even though he knew he wasnâ€™t. He kept on singing, trying to prompt her back into her recent giggly mood. It didnâ€™t work. Perhaps it was the song. Maybe it had bad memories for her.
The strangeness of the situation and his concern for her reactions seemed suddenly ridiculous and, unable to help himself, he began to laugh as the song died away.
â€œWhat do you want to sing now?â€ he asked, killing off his programmed list with the press of a button. He wanted to know what she would choose now that she wasnâ€™t alone, now that she didnâ€™t hate him.
She shrugged like a little girl and busied herself with a cigarette. It was her body language that spoke, eloquently. She was uncomfortable, Robert was sure of it. Perhaps she was deciding whether to go or stay. Grabbing the song menu, he started searching through it frantically for something â€“ anything â€“ heâ€™d seen on that first list sheâ€™d made. He couldnâ€™t fathom why it mattered that she stay; it just did.
If she left, heâ€™d have no one to sing with. If she left, heâ€™d have to go to the Blue Bird and drink himself into a stupor with the idiots from the offshore oil rig. If she left, the subtle smell of patouli would go with her and it would be another two years before he heard a girl cuss again.
He found one â€“ a song that had been on her list: â€œSweet Dreamsâ€ by the Eurythmics. Keying it in, he searched for anything else he recognized and added another to the cue. â€œOkay. How about this?â€ he said, handing her the mic.
She listened to the music start and smiled and nodded. Then, lifting the mic to her lips, she closed her eyes and began to sing. The first part of the song had no lyrics, just notes, but she sang them perfectly, as if sheâ€™d listened to the song a thousand times.
Her self-imposed blindness gave him a chance to really look at her. He watched her lips move, the tendons in her neck tense and release, her chest rise and fall. Perhaps it was her voice, or the way she smiled when she sang certain words, or the way her brows drew together on certain phrases, or the way she sat with her knees drawn together and her feet wide apart. All of a sudden he thought she had the most sensual face heâ€™d ever seen in his life. The urge to kiss her was almost as overwhelming as the fear of how she would react if he did.
â€œSweet dreams are made of this Who am I to disagree? I travel the world And the seven seasâ€“ Everybodyâ€™s looking for something.â€
The taste of metal formed in his mouth as he reached around her waist and slowly pulled her to him, lifting her onto his lap. He held her loosely, even though he fully expected her to elbow him in the face and scream the house down. But she didnâ€™t. She stopped singing, but she didnâ€™t move. There was something indescribably delicious about the weight of her body on top of his. It made him hard instantly.
â€œKeep singing,â€ he whispered, wrapping his arms around her.
She breathed deeply, and then began to sing again. Her voice reverberated through her spine and into his chest. Robert slid his hands over her, imagining what her bare skin felt like beneath the loose cotton vest. Her nipples were small and achingly hard as he covered her breasts with his hands. They were small and soft but with a delicious weight to them. He pressed his mouth to the back of her neck, just below her hairline. Her body shuddered and her voice cracked.
When the song ended and the next one began, she shifted a little to face him. Her cheeks were flushed and her eyes half-closed. She offered him the mic. â€œI donâ€™t know this one, what is it?â€
She made a face and he grinned back at her. â€œI like Bond movies.â€
Slinging her arms around his neck, she shrugged and said, â€œFine. You sing it.â€ It was like a challenge.
As he started into the song, she shifted again, straddling his lap and pressing her face into his neck. Now he understood her challenge in her voice. The heat of her mouth on his neck was so distracting he couldnâ€™t remember the lyrics and followed them on the screen, but even reading wasnâ€™t easy. Her hands traveled, releasing their hold on his neck and fussing with the buttons of his shirt. Cool palms smoothed over his bare chest and she lowered her head until he felt soft, hot lips close around his nipple. The heat made him gasp; her tongue flicked across it and made him hold his breath; and, when he felt the pressure of her teeth as she bit down gentle, he couldnâ€™t stop himself. He arched his hips and ground his cock against her. The lust that flooded through him forced whimpers from his throat until she pressed her mouth on his and kissed him.
Even in the face of so much acquiescence, he still worried she would just get up and leave. He didnâ€™t want to scare her, and even as he wrapped his arms tight around her waist and pressed her flat against him, his mouth â€“ perhaps because it was closer to his brain â€“ was cautious. He pressed the tip of his tongue between her lips. He neednâ€™t have worried. She opened her mouth and took him in with a moan, sucking and stoking his tongue with her own.
His brain screamed at him; â€˜fuck her, fuck her now!â€™ As his hips rose up over and over to press his cock into her fully clothed crotch in a futile attempt to obey, he could smell her wetness, soaking through her jeans. The scent hit him like distilled lunacy. Hands on her hips, he pulled her down onto him and ground against her, believing somehow he would get to feel the hot wetness seeping from her cunt, if only he pressed hard enough.
He felt it in her mouth first â€“ a certain delectable sloppiness in her kisses â€“ and then the roll of her hips became even, fluid. Finally, she shuddered and mewed into his mouth. She was coming.
He held her tight and let her move on him. The only thing that stopped him from exploding in response was a strange, heartbreaking poignancy to the way she came. She didnâ€™t flail or scream like some women heâ€™d been with; it was intensely helpless â€“ a series of soft, moth-like shudders. It made him feel so responsible and yet, unlike Mai, it did nothing to decrease his desire.
Waiting until he was certain the last shiver was past, he kissed her and made her look at him. â€œDo you want to stop?â€
Her reply was an immense relief. He considered for a moment, trying to think with more than just his dick. It was a five minute walk back to his room. But what if it was raining? They could take a taxi. Whatever. One thing was certain; he didnâ€™t want to have her here, in this room.
â€œWe canâ€™t do this here.â€ He began to button his shirt back up.
She looked worried, and then confused. â€œYes we can. What do you think everyone else does here?â€
His cock agreed with her but his gut squirmed. Still, he couldnâ€™t find the words to argue with her. â€œWhat?â€ He grinned uselessly.
She reached over and picked up the remote. â€œThey fuck,â€ she said, pushing the controller into his hand. â€œPick another song.â€
He looked down at it. â€œI donâ€™t want to do this anymore. Come home with me.â€
She shook her head and grabbed the bottle on the table behind her. She took a long swallow, cleared her throat and put the bottle back. â€œI donâ€™t know how long youâ€™ve been here, and I donâ€™t know what shape youâ€™re in, but Iâ€™m not going to make it back to your house. Iâ€™m going to decide, in a moment of clarity, that this is a bad idea.â€ Her face turned hard; the way it had looked when theyâ€™d first met. Reaching for the song menu, she opened it in front of his face. â€œPick another song, or leave.â€ The hardness in her face lasted two or three seconds and then it crumbled into something like grief.
â€œDoes it matter what it is?â€ he asked, softly.
â€œNo, not really.â€
Robert looked up from the book to see a tear slid down the side of her face before she reached down and pulled her top off. He picked the first song he recognized and reached up to pull her face down to his and began to kiss her again.
This time, her kiss felt different. Intense and yet quiet. As the music started, he wrapped his arms around the bare skin of her back. It was cool to the touch and soft. His hands skidded across the surface and down the ridge of her spine.
Between them, he felt her undo the buttons heâ€™d just done up and, with a sigh, she pressed her chest against his. Like her back, it was cool and when she moved her nipples grazed his skin.
Bending her backwards, he took one nipple, and then the other into his mouth. Her back arched as he sucked, her fingers threading into the tangles of his hair. Her scent washed up to him again and had the same effect as before. The blood rushed to his cock, making it throb like a pulse.
He kissed his way down her stomach and undid the button of her jeans, sliding the zipper down slowly. The smell of her was eating away at his brain, begging him to taste her, but they were in an impossible position. Instead, he reached in and worked his fingers under the top of her panties. She was so wet, his fingers slipped between her labia instantly.
Her response was just as immediate. Her hips thrust upwards, her whole frame shuddered, and she yelped like a puppy. The sound cut through him like burning wire. With every slow stroke of his fingers, she made the same sound. It was so raw, so obscenely sexual; he thought that perhaps the sound alone would make him come.
But the desire to push his cock into the hot, wet place in front of him was greater. He withdrew his fingers and pulled her upright, smearing her face with his hand before bringing her cheek to his mouth and sucking her juices off the skin.
If he fucked her now it would be over, and he didnâ€™t want it to be over. He made a little noise of protestation when he felt her hands at the opening of his pants. She ignored it and pressed on, feeling her way under his clothes and curling her small, cool fingers around his burning cock.
â€œGod, that feels good,â€ she whispered, sliding her hand along his shaft, over the sensitive head and back down. She met his gaze as she touched him and smiled.
Robertâ€™s mind raced. Her touch was unbearable; if she didnâ€™t stop, he was going to come in her hand, and what would she think of him then? He grabbed her by the wrist and made her stop. Still, he could feel himself throbbing in her grasp. Frantically, he tried to think of things that would slow him down.
â€œWhatâ€™s your name?â€ he asked in desperation.
Her lips curved into a lopsided smile. â€œSusan. Yours?â€
â€œIâ€™m glad you didnâ€™t leave, Robert.â€
He laughed weakly and swallowed hard. â€œUmâ€¦ Listen, Susan. Iâ€™m not sure how to say this, but I donâ€™t think Iâ€™m going to last very long.â€ He stumbled over the words, knowing he sounded like a loser. â€œI apologize. Itâ€™s just thatâ€¦â€
She threw her head back and laughed. â€œWell, longer than meâ€¦so, youâ€™re forgiven.â€ She kissed him again, hard, and pressed her crotch against him. â€œCan we fuck now?â€
She got off his lap and stepped out of her jeans, pulling her panties off with them and kicking them aside. When he arched his hips to do the same, she helped him tug them off. Naked, she straddled his legs again and looked down at him.
The question, the way she asked it, made his eyes water. â€œYes,â€ he whispered, putting his hands on her hips and pulling her down until he felt the head of his cock slide between her pussy lips. If her skin had been cool, her cunt was the opposite. It was wet and burning as she eased herself onto him.
He held her gaze for as long as he could and then let his eyes close. He heard her whimper and felt the muscles of her walls flutter around his cock. He was sure that at no time in his life had anything ever felt so good.
â€œJesus.â€ It was something between a sob and a whisper. It was all he could manage.
She replied without words, slowly moving her hips, her hands cool on his shoulders.
When he opened his eyes again, hers were closed. He watched her lithe frame undulate above him. The musculature of her stomach rippled and fluttered as she moved, her small breasts shivered. Her mouth was ajar and her brows drawn. Every time she lowered herself to engulf him, she keened.
It was over already. He could feel his balls tighten and he gave up the fight and thrust up to meet her, pushing in deep enough to reach the end and feel his cockhead hit her cervix.
Her eyes fluttered open. â€œAre you coming?â€
Robert tried to answer but he couldnâ€™t. He nodded and gasped. Instinctively pulling her hips down as he arched.
She mewed quietly as he felt the first pulse of come shoot into her. Suddenly her cunt spasmed around him and she began to ride him faster. The sensation of coming as she squeezed his cock was exquisite; he felt the heat of his own fluids flood out around the base of it. Her body was twitching as the he spent the last of himself, and even in her silence, he knew she was coming. He pushed his fingers down into the wet mess between them and let them graze her clit as she moved.
She stopped with his cock buried in her, and shook. The stutters of her breath caught in her throat. Inside her, the contractions almost hurt him.
As they waned, she opened her eyes and looked at him unseeing, until finally the twitches subsided and he felt her world slide into focus.
She gave him a strange, uncertain grin.
Robert reached up and stroked her feverish cheek with his fingertips. â€œSo. Can we go back to my place now?â€
She bent her face towards his hand and nodded.
â€œI Wanna Be Your Dogâ€ The Stooges, from the album â€œThe Stooges.â€
â€œWhite Wedding â€“ Part 1â€³ Billy Idol, from the album â€œBilly Idol.â€ â€œ
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)â€ â€“ The Eurythmics, from the album â€œTouch.â€