It wasn’t possible to mistake her. The woman who pushed through the glass doors and entered the coffee shop looked exactly like her photograph. This was a relief. Philip had gone to a number of first meetings only to discover these women had sent him pictures of someone completely different. Ironically, what they looked like, within reason, didn’t matter to him, but they’d broken the only rule he insisted upon – honesty.

The woman who’d just arrived crossed over to coffee counter and ordered a drink. Then, she turned around and began to scan the room.

She’d been overly modest. The woman waiting at the counter was not nearly as plain as she had claimed to be. In her photograph – a head and shoulder shot – the auburn hair had been pulled back off her face, but she wore it loose now, a mane that tumbled down her back in shining curls. Her skin was very fair – the kind that would burn quickly in the sun. She wore a knee length black overcoat, a burgundy cardigan beneath it, and a pleated black skirt. Philip suspected that she was one of those people who felt the cold acutely. Despite the opaque stockings, he could see that she had lovely legs, and her feet were encased in neat, black pumps with a depressingly sensible heel.

The young man behind the counter handed her the drink but she remained at the counter still scanning the room. It wasn’t polite to let her stand there searching for him, but it was hard to resist the pleasure of watching her, before everything changed with their introduction. Reluctantly Philip walked to the bar.

“Are you Jill?”

She smiled nervously. “Yes! Philip?”

“Indeed.” He held out his hand and she took it. Her small hand was cold and shook slightly as he grasped it. “Shall we sit down?”

“Oh, yes. Please.”

She wasn’t just nervous; she was frightened – frightened of him. It hurt him a little inside to think of any woman being scared of him in this way, even if he understood that the world was sometimes a nasty place and it was a stupid woman who didn’t think twice before meeting a stranger off the internet.

He had left a post on the personals message board. He was careful to word it in a non-aggressive way but equally careful to be clear about what he was looking for. He’d posted his own photograph on the message itself. He wanted to be scrupulously honest about who he was and felt that he deserved the same in return.

Once seated, she looked down at her paper cup and picked at the label with her nail. She gave a small smile and said, “I’m not quite sure what to say. I’ve never done this before. I… I don’t know…”

“Jill? Look at me.” She lifted her eyes hesitantly. “I’m sorry this is such an awkward situation. I wouldn’t want you to think I don’t understand how hard it is for you. Okay?”

She nodded and inhaled. “Okay.”

“You’re scared, aren’t you?”

She nodded energetically. “Yes. I am. I really am.”

“I could tell you that you have no reason to be, that I am exactly who I say I am and want exactly what I’ve said I want, but you’re smart – it wouldn’t make any difference.”

He lay his hand, palm up, on the table’s surface. She looked at it, then at him, then back at his hand. Hesitating visibly, she lowered her hand on top of his and let it sit there. Philip could feel how cold it was, his own warmth leached away to fill her. He curled his fingers gently.

“The only thing that is going to make a difference is time. And I have lots of that.”

He felt her fingers return a tiny, shaky squeeze. It made him smile. “Can I ask you something? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”

“Ask.” There was still a tremendous amount of tension in her face, but she met his gaze.

“Considering how hard it is to do this, why did you?’

Jill opened and closed her mouth, several times, before any words came out. “It’s very hard to explain. I don’t know if I can… I had a…” the words dried up and she shook her head in frustration.

Phillip sat it silence and waited.

“Once, a long time ago, I had an experience with someone. It was casual, you know? But I felt something… different…”

She wiped the tips of her fingers over her mouth, thinking. Watching her struggle to verbalize was both painful and extremely erotic.

“I think a lot. I think too much. Sometimes I think my life will fly past me while I’m busy analysing the first ten years of it. I can’t make it stop. I can’t be peaceful. I can’t stop picking apart every little detail of reality. Sometimes I think it will drive me insane.” Her words were pouring out in a cascade now.

“But, once, I met this man. Oh, ten, eleven years ago now. Um… ” Her hand twitched in his grasp, her voice was quiet and tight. “He… we didn’t have a relationship or anything. It was on holiday, you know? He…”

“He made it stop?” offered Philip.

“Yes! He made it stop. Suddenly everything was…”

“…Peaceful?”

“Yes! Peaceful.” She nodded; some of the tension in her face ebbed away. “At first – well, for a long time – I couldn’t figure out what it was that he did that made me peaceful. He was very different from anyone I’d been with before; he scared me actually. It wasn’t like being with someone normal… Jesus! It’s so hard to explain.”

“You did a good job of it, Jill. That’s fine. Thank you.” Philip covered her the top of her hand with his free one and stroked it. “You did very well.”

“Do you understand?”

“Yes. I do. Completely.” He’d corresponded with other women about this before. Some of them had been very forthcoming, in extremely graphic language, about exactly what they were looking for, but few could explain why they wanted it. That was important to him; he needed to know that this part of them wasn’t utterly disconnected from the rest of their lives. He wasn’t interested in a bit of casual D/s in a hotel room somewhere. He was looking for someone to be with – to be himself with – on a long-term basis.

“Is there anything you’d like to ask me?”

Her gaze slid from him, out past the windows of the café, to the street beyond. “Do you think I’m looking in the right place?”

“I don’t know. I think that’s something no one else can answer but you.”

“Why do you do this? It can’t be easy for you either.”

“No. Not easy. Although I don’t need to be quite as worried about my physical safety as you.”

He realized that he hadn’t given her a proper answer and she deserved one. “I do it because, without it, my life feels meaningless.”

“Oh.”

Philip smiled. “Oh,” he echoed back.

“What happens now, then?”

“We keep meeting here, like this, until you feel safe.”

She nodded and then sat silent for more than a minute. Finally she said, “It’s never going to feel safe, until I know it is,” Her eyes drifted over to the window again, “and I can never know that here.”

That wasn’t the answer he’d been expecting at all. “Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“Then when would you like to meet again?”

Throughout the conversation, he saw just how tightly she controlled herself. The fear was still there, even now. But clearly she was one of those very rare people who could be scared and still rational. She would be such a challenge for him. The prospect of being with her excited him deeply.

“Friday?”

“Friday is fine. Shall I book a hotel or… where would you feel most comfortable?”

“At your flat, if that’s okay with you.”

* * *
His doorbell rang at 4 pm on the dot. When he opened the door, she stood in the hallway looking as nervous as she had the first time they’d met, but when he invited her in, she didn’t hesitate. It was as if her mind and her body where on completely different planes, and it was certainly her mind doing the driving.

Still, he took her hand and pressed it between both of his, trying to help her see her way past the worst of it. It was the most intriguing type of vulnerability he could remember seeing.

“Are you okay?”

“I think so.”

“Tell me if you’re not.”

“I will.”

“Promise?” he asked, cocking his eyebrow.

“Promise.” She gave him a tiny smile.

Philip raised a cupped hand to her face. He expected her to flinch at first. First contacts were always awkward until people began to communicate physically. But her restraint was breathtaking. She stood absolutely still, letting him caress her cheek, drawing his fingertips down her neck. Beneath his touch, the pulse at her neck was racing, thready.

“Can I take your coat?”

“Has it started?”

For a moment Philip was confused, then he laughed. “Yes and no,” he said, helping her out of her coat and hanging it on the rack by the door. “We have some ground rules to establish first.”

He settled her on the couch in the living room. She sat primly, with her knees and ankles pressed together. He offered her a glass of wine and she sipped it while he explained to her about safe-words. They agreed on ‘capital’. He made sure she understood that using it held no shame, no penalty.

Philip sat beside her as they talked, holding her hand. He felt the tension start to ease as the wine hit her bloodstream and her fingers relaxed in his grasp. Even though he knew it would be easier for her, he didn’t offer a second glass. She had to transverse the barrier of her own volition; too much alcohol would call the legitimacy of her decision into question. And as much as he wanted her, he didn’t want her that way.

“Right. I think that’s about it.”

“Do you want me to call you Sir or Master or something?” It was a small question, a child’s question.

He touched her face again and stifled a laugh. “No… you can call me whatever you want. You call me something like that when you’re ready.”

“How will I…” she hesitated, “…how will I know?”

“You’ll know.” Philip got up. “Now, I’d like you to stand up, please.”

She looked up at him, the fear had returned to her eyes. “Has it started?”

“Yes… It’s started.”

Jill put her wineglass on the table and stood in front of him. She was graceful and her posture was naturally good. He didn’t tower over her, but the difference in their size was dramatic enough to make him feel protective, a feeling he enjoyed. Philip let her stand, let the silence fill the room, until he saw minute tremors at the tendons in her neck.

Then he touched her – just her arm. “Relax.” He let his hand drift up and curl behind her neck. “I’m going to taste you.”

He bent down and kissed her, careful to ensure the contact was only with her mouth. Lips quivering with tension as he covered them, tasting the tang of wine on their plump softness. His hand held her firmly in place as he explored the outside of her mouth with his tongue. Gradually he felt her jaw relax. The lips parted and he exhaled into her before sliding his tongue between them. Under the taste of the wine was something warmer, infinitesimally spicy, like nutmeg. Philip wondered if her whole body would taste like that. He wanted to know.

She wasn’t naturally acquiescent. He could tell as he fed on her mouth. She was held together with string, he suspected. He wanted to know how many knots it would take to tease her apart. She felt nothing for him, and yet she allowed him past her barriers – all in search of something entirely esoteric. It didn’t bother Philip that, as he kissed her, he felt no passion there. There would be.

“Take off your clothes, please,” he said, breaking the kiss.

She looked at him for a moment and then nodded. Philip sat down in an armchair opposite to watch her. He wanted to see her body, but that wasn’t why he was asking her to expose herself like this. He wanted to know if she’d balk.

Her thin fingers struggled with the buttons on her blouse. At one point, she looked away towards the window as she undid the last of them and shrugged her shirt off. There it was: the one brick wall to keep him out – the disconnect. Ridding her of that would be his principal challenge. She wore a plain white bra beneath which she reached back and undid, letting it slip away from her as she lowered her arms to unbutton her skirt. The skin of her chest was milky. Her breasts were neither too large nor too small and there was neither pride nor shame as she exposed them. The nipples were erect, whether from cold or arousal or fear, Philip wasn’t foolish enough to try and guess which.

She let her skirt slide down to her ankles, revealing plain white panties that matched her bra and a pair of stay-up stockings. He considered asking her to leave those on, but decided her total exposure was more important, for her, and he was glad of his decision; after stepping out of her shoes, and bending down to roll off her stockings, she looked away toward the window again as she pulled her panties over her hips and let them drop to the floor.

She was almost perfect, physically, but not quite. Her hips, her jaw and her mouth were all just a little too wide and this, in Philip’s eyes, saved her from the banality of perfection. They were the attributes that made her unique, and interesting to him.

She was still lost in the world beyond the window as Philip stood and walked over to her. He took her jaw and felt the tiniest resistance before she let him move her head to face him.

“How do you feel?”

“Fine.” Her answer came too quick.

“Don’t lie,” he said quietly.

“Sorry.” A whisper.

“How do you feel?”

“Naked… Nervous…Cold…inside.”

“Thank you.”

He pulled her forward a little and kissed her again. Amazing how nakedness could change things. Her mouth was receptive now, her lips responsive. He didn’t delude himself that it was passion; it was the instinctive seeking of sanctuary.

Philip stepped back a and trailed his fingertips down her neck, over her collarbone and onto her left breast, covering it with the palm of his hand. He listened to her breathing and his eyes never left her face. She caught her breath as he massaged her and he watched her eyelids flutter closed.

“Keep your eyes open, please.”

She responded lethargically and the effect was truly erotic; her dilated pupils shimmered and shrank. Philip’s cock twitched appreciatively.

“Your breasts are very beautiful,” he murmured, drawing his hand back to take the nipple between his thumb and forefinger, rolling it. A tiny nerve in her upper lip twitched. She was fighting the sensation. No matter, Philip thought, she couldn’t fight more than one at a time. With his free hand, he cupped her vulva, moulding his fingers into the curves. She had a sparse thatch of darker hair, neatly trimmed. She shivered, then – it was what he expected – and a small noise escaped her throat.

He brushed the fingers of one hand over the outer lips of her pussy, teasing the hairs. The fingers at her nipple squeezed with slow and subtle pressure. Philip allowed himself a private smile as she swayed slightly. Her gaze dropped for a moment, and then sought the safety of the drying light outside the window.

“Don’t, Jill. Don’t look away. Eyes on mine, please.”

She nodded slowly and looked up at him. He gave her an encouraging smile. The trust she was showing him was tremendous and he was utterly aware of what it was costing her. It wouldn’t go unrewarded.

Between her legs, his fingers worked slowly but diligently, stroking her, bringing blood to her outer lips until they plumped and made his passage easier. Then, while he increased the pressure on her nipple, he slid a fingertip into the furrow of her cunt, grazing the tiny nub at the centre.

“Oh-h!” The sound was half-gasp, half-cry.

“Oh, indeed.” he whispered. Between his own legs, Philip’s cock began to throb dully.

Her pupils opened gradually as he touched her, gently sliding his finger down to her opening to gather up the moisture that had just begun to pool there. His pressure on her nipple was considerable, and yet there was no sign of the pain of it in her eyes. That was the sensation she’d chosen to block and so he released it and moved his hand up to her face, cupping her cheek and running his thumb across her lips.

Her cunt was wet now, and his fingers moved fluidly, stroking the whole of her cleft. Her clit engorged as he worked her, emerging from under its hood to seek his attentions. Philip was sure her heart was racing now that a lovely flush of pink crept up her neck and onto her cheeks. The sight of it, and the increased rhythm of her breathing made him salivate. But what made him almost painfully hard was the parting of her lips. He slid his thumb between them, into the waiting heat of her mouth.

He didn’t have to ask her. She began to suck it beautifully, eagerly. Soft pink lips embraced his thumb as he slowly fucked her mouth with it.

Below, he pressed two fingers up inside her and tormented her clit with his thumb. Her liquids flowing, he felt them ooze over his hand and between her thighs.

She moaned around his thumb and sucked hungrily. Her hips trembled and sent ripples up her body.

He withdrew his thumb from her mouth. He needed his hand now to steady her from behind and, stepping closer to her until their bodies touched, Philip put his arm around her waist and kissed her.

Now, at the cusp of her arousal, her mouth was open and hungry. He replaced his thumb with his tongue and filled her mouth with it. She responded instantly, suckling it, whimpering her pleasure.

Her legs parted wider, her hips rolled to meet the thrusts of his fingers and Philip felt her cunt muscles clutch at his fingers as she began to orgasm.

He pushed his lips to her ear, urging her over the edge. “Good girl,” he murmured. “Such a good girl.”

“Oh-h…. please!” she begged.

He filled her with his fingers, over and over, as she convulsed against him, murmuring wordless sounds into his shoulder.

When the last of the aftershocks were over, he pulled his fingers from her gently and embraced her.

“Good girl,” he said again, and kissed her on the forehead,

She mewed into his chest in response.

Then, he released her and, with his hands on her shoulders, turned her to face away from him and pushed her downwards.

“On your hands and knees, please.”

But she was already sinking down onto them. She hesitated for a moment, before bending forward to take her upper weight on her hands.

Philip walked around her and looked down appreciatively. He bent to smooth her hair back and trace his fingertips along her spine. Her body rippled in the wake of his touch.

“Don’t move, Jill,” he said in a quiet, firm voice.

Philip left the room and opened the hall closet for what he needed: two short lengths of rope, a pillow, a butt plug, and a condom.

He wanted her desperately and he would have liked to take her, looking into her face, but that wasn’t what she needed. That would have to wait.

Returning to the room, he found her in the same place he’d left her, except she’d lowered her body to the floor. It wasn’t worth a punishment, not at this stage in her training.

He knelt down beside her and stroked her side. “Are you alright, Jill?”

She looked up at him, her eyes slightly glazed and nodded.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes. I’m sure,” she whispered.

“What’s the safe word, Jill?”

“Ca…capitol.”

“Use it if you need to,” Philip said gently.

She closed her eyes and smiled. “I don’t need to.”

“Then up on your hands and knees, please.”

She rolled onto her stomach and resumed her earlier position. Philip slid the pillow between her hands and, with his hand on the back of her neck, pressed her down gently, until her head was resting on its side, on the pillow. She watched him as he did this, her eyes filled with trust.

“Lay your arms flat on the floor, please, with your hands touching your legs.”

As she did what he asked, Philip was almost sure he saw a small smile cross her lips. He stroked her back before taking each of her wrists and tying them loosely to her calves. The bindings were hardly a significant restraint. If she was uncomfortable, she could roll over onto her side. Their purpose was to keep her head down and her ass up. As a position, it was beautiful for a dominant to see, offered good access, and very fulfilling for the submissive.

When he’d finished tying her, he stroked her back again to reassure her, but it wasn’t needed. She’d settled into the position with a very pleasing sound.

Philip stood up and undressed, making sure she could see him do it. Then, returning to his knees, he moved behind her and eased her legs apart, just enough to have full access to her cunt. It was sopping wet from her orgasm and he worked his fingers between her lips, reigniting her arousal and coaxing her wetness backwards. She mewed into the pillow, and spread her knees further apart.

His fingers worked her until her fluids began to flow again, and then spread them upwards, over her asshole. At first she twitched when he pressed against the small, tight hole with his slippery finger. With his other hand, he covered her mound and let a finger slide between the lips to coax her open with subterfuge. Stoking the fingers of one hand over her clit, he pressed the index finger of the other into her anus until just the tip was buried in her. Jill moaned and moved. With each roll of her hips, she impaled herself a little more onto his finger until it was halfway inside her. He was careful not to let her come yet and so he teased her clit, giving and denying her in turns.

Introducing a second finger into her ass, he worked and stretched her until he felt she was ready. Then, he withdrew his fingers and eased the larger plug into her. At first she whimpered and her legs shook, but a little more attention to her clit coaxed it into her.

“Do you want to come?”

“Please… Philip.”

“I want you to come on my cock.”

She panted and rolled her hips again.” Yes… God, yes!”

Philip opened the condom package and rolled the sheath onto his cock. It felt cool and pleasant against his burning skin. Positioning himself behind her, cock in hand, he teased the head of it between her swollen cunt lips. Again, he wished he could have seen her face as he did this. It would have given him immense pleasure to watch her as he penetrated her for the first time.

Slowly, he eased the head of his cock into her pussy, and heard the most gorgeous moan from her throat. She was burning and tight, and pushing into her was delicious. He looked down to see the plug filling her other hole and began to fuck her, slowly and evenly.

She pressed back to meet him as he filled her, gasping at each stroke. He sank his cock deep and, as he did, his pelvic bone forced the butt plug deeper into her ass.

The long swathe of milk-white skin on her back called to him and he reached forward to stroke it as he pumped her, revelling in the grunts she was making, knowing that the civilized part of her was being stripped away with each cock-thrust.

He bent over her and reached for her breast, taking the nipple between his fingers and squeezing hard. Immediately, she groaned and fucked back at him harder, her cunt muscles squeezing him, greedy for what he was feeding her.

“Oh fuck!” she cried. “Philip… Don’t stop… Please.”

“I won’t… Not until you’re there.” He wasn’t talking about orgasm, and he was sure she knew it.

He released her nipple and reached forward until his hand encircled the back of her neck. He pressed her face hard into the pillow and began to pound into her.

Then, quite suddenly, he felt the body beneath him change. The rhythm of her undulations became fluid and she spread her knees as wide as they would go.

“Yes-s…” she keened. Her eyes were open and blind, and she was smiling.

She was there, where she had wanted to get back to for so long. He heard the animal sounds she made as she started to come around him. He slowed his pace and fed her deep thrusts that took him to the edge as well and pushed him over. He impaled her hard and held her there as he shot waves of come into her spasming cunt.

When he pulled out of her, she made no noise, nor when he removed the plug. As he moved around to undo the ties at her wrists it was the same. No sound, no hint of recognition in her eyes. He pulled a throw off the armchair and covered her with it. Gradually, almost ten minutes later, she curled up on her side and reached out to touch his hand.

“Thank you,” she murmured.

“Was it as you remembered?’

Jill nodded her head and closed her eyes. She was asleep in seconds.


Comments

84 responses to “Therapy”

  1. Love the new stories. *fantastic*

  2. Samantha Avatar
    Samantha

    This is a lovely, romantic, delicious story. Thanks.

  3. Nice story

  4. this is by far my favourite story, and always makes me come when i am reading it and playing with myself.

    this is the first time ive commented on one of your stories, this one is bookmarked 🙂

  5. This story took my breath away. There are hardly words…

  6. Trixibelle Avatar
    Trixibelle

    Yum

  7. Hysteria Avatar
    Hysteria

    I find that this one brings me back to a peaceful erotic place after reading some of the more dangerous stories- I love that you provide that balance for us. I find your work to be so honest.

    1. What a lovely thing to say. Thank you.

      1. Hysteria Avatar
        Hysteria

        Aw, how lovely. Just seeing, four years later, that you replied.

        Your work comes in and out of my life in a really beautiful way. Thanks.

  8. I wish these two would meet again. I am seeing a sea of episodes. She loves her rational self, but unfortunately one cannot get off on that. So he could play on that inner struggle. For me, this is sort of familiar territory. So what I’m seeing is … a list of episodes where she has to go against her rational self. Do you think sex in public is too quotidien? To make her do something in an envirnment, that is normally controls, that she associates with rationality, would be ….hard…. and hard. Another day, he could torment her rationality by infusing her with sexual pride in a setting where a lot of men would want to fuck her, only to then with him, and he wouldn’t want to do her. Oh please do not take these ideas as any sort of instructions, I don’t even want to throw ideas at you, because I like yours better. I just want want want MORE form these two!!

    1. “Do you think sex in public is too quotidien?”

      I don’t really make generalizations about sex like that. I think it depends how you write it.

      “I am seeing a sea of episodes”

      You write them! Take the characters and go for it! 😀

  9. This story unfolds in such a seductive way. And by the end I felt happy they found each other.

  10. This was wonderful. Been a while since I read something so.. juicy.

  11. orange rose Avatar
    orange rose

    I have read this one many times.

  12. This is beautiful, your writing has an amazing clarity, I can fully relate to you characters, when I read this I can feel, taste, and hear every they can. I have only just discovered your site and I am really enjoying discovering each story, Thank you!

    1. This comment is exactly what I feel but I fear I’m much to aroused to write as eloquent as you have.

  13. Caitlin Avatar
    Caitlin

    This story is so unbelievably good. It really speaks to something I’m craving. RG, your work is so brilliant. Thank you.

  14. Lillith Avatar
    Lillith

    I love this so much.

  15. Very very arrousing. I usually am drawn to the female POV, but your writing amazing. It draws me in so easily.

    1. Thanks very much for the comments. I’m glad you’re enjoying it. I find a lot of these sorts of stories are presented from the female POV, so I like and find it challenging to put myself into the head of the other side.

  16. The details really make the story, like how she was nervously looking for him in the cafe or the description of her back prior to entering her. I find myself sliding seamlessly between the imagery and the eroticism.

  17. Anastaria Avatar
    Anastaria

    amazing

  18. Thank you for the stories. It’s hard to find its type of erotica that’s not over the top and contrived. You’ve managed it.

  19. Thought this was amazing. I enjoy your writing the description you give to little details like add to the experience.

  20. I feel kind of really happy for the woman, to have found someone who can make her mind shut up so well. It’s really such a hard place to reach…

  21. This was purely sexy, having related so much to Jill. You write so strongly from the male perspective. I loved this, as well as Pleasure ‘ s Apprentice. You have a firm grasp on why these interactions and relationships can be so rewarding and..perfectly arousing.

  22. I’ve been reading your stories on your site from time to time but have never commented before, in part because I am an American. This is a story I just cannot forget and return to often. I have often thought of these characters and wondered what happened next. Your ability to create characters who seem like people you know is what makes your stories so memorable. Thank your for sharing your gift of them.

  23. Melanie Avatar
    Melanie

    This is a good representation of what I wish I could find, in a story and in real life. I really related to her nervousness but her ease with him once she relaxed, its great that he was so gentle with her too. Please write more like this it’d be great for it to develop into an actual relationship. Awesome job!

  24. Thank you. This story is a gift.

  25. A really great story, thank you, I can’t stop reading…

  26. This was amazing. The perfect way to end my night. I’ll be back for more.

  27. This story, and all of yours that I have had the pleasure of reading, epitomize perfection. I truly envy your ability to write such intense stories so eloquently, in a way that leaves everyone who reads them wanting more. You are gifted.

  28. Beautifully written as to tantalize the mind with the images that flashed through me. Being new to the D/s world I find that there is so much……… more. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful story.

  29. I love this story, very juicy, very arousing I love your work

  30. Cassie Avatar
    Cassie

    “There it was: the one brick wall to keep him out – the disconnect. Ridding her of that would be his principal challenge.” I think this shows how we all feel at times- shy, insecure, unsure of ourselves- and that distance between what we want versus what we think we should. Do you surmise that relationships would be altogether more honest within themselves if these basic human instincts or truths were not so often misunderstood. If we, did not misunderstand ourselves, I mean. Seeing and being seen in that vulnerable state and allowing raw powerful pleasure to overtake ones body can be as much a spiritual experience as anything, and sharing within that is what I would find to be what allures or attracts. This concept that even when you think you are not, or need to not be, you are, and you are attractive and sexy. It brings a character to full light with effortlessness, patience, and a flow of words that upon reading do not force you to be apart of them but rather invites you to experience your own inner desire through them- in the appreciation of human form, emotion, and sex. I love these words and I love the experience of reading them or knowing them as intimately. And, to add, circumstance, as I often understood it, is far from binding, but rather in these human words, freeing.

  31. This is beautiful… I loved it. Thank you.

  32. I’m so glad I’ve found your site, your handling of the physical and psychological is elegant and your style deceptively simple. Please keep writing more!! 🙂

  33. Michael Avatar
    Michael

    I notice a lot of your stories are about the first time two people have sex. Is there a reason for that? Is Erotica always this way? Does erotica ever include a couple that’s been together for years?

    1. I think there is. I don’t think I’m representative of the genre as a whole.

  34. Foxylady Avatar
    Foxylady

    Great story enjoyed absolutely every inch of it. Thanks for igniting something in my psyche that I thought was long gone after becoming a mother.Will be reading much much more. A special thanks for providing such exciting content for free. My husband is going to be thanking you . I’ve been away from him for a week and a half & need I say more!!!

  35. Minnower Avatar
    Minnower

    Done nicely and nicely done by Mr. Philip, service professional. I’m just a backyard mechanic; to understand I had to google a few things and read up on D/S M/S ideas and their accessories (like @Sex Geek and Wiki). I think you show a lot of empathy and respect for your interesting characters not just degradation and shock and make your reader reach a higher plane…not just this story (I think I’m up to 8 of your works read now). “Therapy,” I love the title.

  36. Very nice descriptions of the feels and sensations, not just a crude list of actions
    Thank you

  37. Letting Go Avatar
    Letting Go

    Loved this story- thank you. You write with such sensitivity and intelligence. I feel like I’m in safe hands with no jarring side swerves.

  38. Beautiful

  39. This is the first time I’m commenting on any of your stories, but come here often since they’re so tastefully written. This one is my favourite yet, exactly the right balance of force and gentleness. Thank you.

  40. Just gorgeous… It’s so refreshing to read something with such depth from someone who can write with warmth and elegance rather than just vulgarity. Shamelessly human. I felt really connected with both characters and loved the contrast of the male POV. Great work!

  41. I stumbled on your site today for the first time. What a beautifully crafted story. It speaks to my soul, thank you for sharing!

  42. Great introduction and build up… something missing at the end…. Needed more of a crescendo at the end.

    1. That’s a pretty fair criticism. I suck at endings.

  43. That was achingly lush and wonderful. Thank you for that. I feel certain that I will read this again, and likely again.

  44. Great story! I only wish it were longer.

  45. LikeIWouldSay Avatar
    LikeIWouldSay

    Is that silent place really hard to reach for most women? That’s what sex always does for me.

  46. A story that I actually read more than once. I love that we do not know much about the two characters. Makes me want to write. Thank you.

  47. Love the story was so intense

  48. A gorgeous story. Thank you.

  49. I love your writing. It’s so well composed. Thank you. (And I love that you want donations to the ACLU! They need our support more than ever.). Thanks for writing and caring.

  50. This is a great piece to engage the mind whilst half asleep. It awakens a part that I didn’t know I had or perhaps I’d forgotten about.

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