And then I knew,
Like a resigned nod
that prompts the stately closing
of massive doors upon some fictive scene.
And then I knew
that delusions of proximity
are like delusions of grandeur, only
twice as laughable and five times as distant.
And then I knew.
despite saying I was cool with all of it,
I could do without everything but hope,
and that was not on offer.
I understood the measure
you would take from me
and it was not enough.