#lostinsaigon – April 5th

In the hard vacuum
of your departure
I measure moments
in heartbeats
caught in amber.
#gogyohka #lostinsaigon

time stretches
like molten glass
a fine, translucent infinity
that trembles
and breaks
#gogyohka #lostinsaigon

the smell of sweat
the breach of breath
the slick of lust
died to a second skin
in the silence of sleep
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

I’d rather be crushed
beneath the weight of you
than the damnable heat
of this empty furnace of a city
too quiet in your absence
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

the old ceiling fan
sobs its revolutions
and finds your scent
hidden in the cracks
of these sordid walls
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

shame stained paint
peels and flakes
gathers whispering in corners
and enumerates
all my misjudgments
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

once you had me here
on this wide bed
a rainstorm clawed its way
between my legs
and buried its temper in my heart
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

lust curdles the blood
and eats away
the edges of civility
until I must have you
or see your destruction
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

the cut of my teeth
the savagery of my appetite
the pitiless thirst to be under your skin
only you can forgive
or punish me.
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

excess is all and nothing
the thrust of your hips
the grip on my arm
the welts on my skin
all elusive as ghosts
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka

I cannot find shame where it should be
it’s waiting in the wings,
laying an ambush
in the hard vacuum
of your departure.
#lostinsaigon #gogyohka