It took me a moment to work up an appropriate reaction. My cock twitched to life, like the predicable, mindless moron it was. I took in the display: the petulant expression beneath the tangle of curls; her nipples, small and nearly black against the skin of her small breasts; her hips canted, pushing out the bones to make a well of her lower stomach. The sharp tendons of her thighs stood out from the bandage-white skin. They quivered with the tension of her spread. Between them, her cunt was bare and splayed: her inner lips brutally crimson.
A lit cigarette dangled between her fingers. She took a drag and exhaled a stream of smoke up at the ceiling, leaving her gaze to settle there. “Fuck me,” she said in a small, absent voice.
I put down the tray so as not to drop it and tried desperately to will away my erection, only to acknowledge the futility of the effort. I had also forgotten to breathe.
“You…” I swallowed against a dry throat. “You can’t smoke in my house.”
I kicked myself mentally for the complete inanity of my response, but the cliche of blood-flow is truer than anyone cares to admit.
She took another deep drag and then casually let the burning cigarette drop onto the tiled floor, as if she were at an outdoor coffee stall. “Fuck me.”
“No.”
“It’s what you want.”
“No!” I barked, stooping to retrieve the burning cigarette and stubbing it out with vehemence on one of the saucers on the coffee tray. “You need to get dressed and go. Now!”
When I looked up it was to watch her languidly slide a hand, fingers splayed, between her legs. Even from that distance, the flesh sounded wet as her fingers skated over it. The tip of her finger worried her clit for a moment, and then she reached down, pushing it into her opening.
I hated this woman. I wanted her out of my house and my life just as fast as I could manage to eject her. I also wanted my cock buried in that tight, hot cunt with a ferocity that brought tears to my eyes. Conflicted didn’t begin to describe my state of mind.
Paralyzed, I watched her slump further down the sofa. She paused for a beat, then joined her first finger to a second and plunged the pair deep inside herself. Her hips rose up to meet her hand and she began to fuck herself almost viciously, raking her thumb across her clit with every inward thrust.
This wasn’t someone masturbating luxuriantly; it was like being a witness to self-inflicted violation. It told in her face. There was no pleasure in there, just manic desperation. And, oddly enough, that made me harder. If she had gasped and moaned and writhed, I could have focused on her selfishness and maintained some sense of distance. But it was so visually clear that she was only performing this act as an illustrated set of instructions, I couldn’t stop myself from falling into the vortex of it.
Even as I unbuckled my belt and unzipped my chinos, I damned myself for being weak. A black tide of self-hatred climbed my spine as I stepped around the coffee table and between her legs, freeing my erection from the confines of my boxers.
“Let’s get this straight. This is what you want,” I growled, tugging her hand away from her crotch.
She looked up at me with a sickening sort of triumph. One hand under her ass, I raised her hips. I angled my cock and shoved myself into her with all the rage I had inside me. The lizard part of my brain was determined to fuck that obscene expression off her face.
OMG I am not worthy.
worthy of what?
Wow, RG, this is pretty hot! It makes me pretty uncomfortable, too, which means you hit a nerve dead-on, at least for me. Brava. Can’t wait to see the rest, even if (when) it makes me squirm.
How do you do that?? make your characters come so completely to life and so quickly!!!
Um…I’m not sure. I guess I just model them after people I know. *laughing* Most of them would probably not be happy with the way I portray them, though.
well… Whatever you’re doing. Don’t stop!!
I love good characters and yours are some of the best.
This is a very fun story. I love the come here/go away, “I hate you”/”I have to have you” conflict. It’s very exciting.
Eve
Thank you! Don’t we all feel like that sometimes? haha
RG. I don’t know how you do it. so uncomfortable, yet so hot.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
Thank you for commenting and being honest about your reactions. It’s kind of you to do it so often.
This is powerful stuff!
Wow. Am I the only one who feels like I need a bath, an std test, and a psych evaluation after reading this story. Your stories are incredible because they go so much deeper than a nice clean fantasy. You play with all the inner private parts of my libido. I want to say I do not identify with him, but I cannot help myself.
Thank you,
may I have another ?
Would it make you feel any better if I told you it made me feel the same way writing it? *cringe*
But thank you. I take that as a great compliment. Now if I could only write happy stuff!